Wednesday, November 29, 2006

it was more tormenting today. spent the whole day at home.

late nights like the one i was having probably caused me to wake up at like 10am today. den i was like thinking. going to manda's house and getting back vby 1pm would be as good as not going at all.

so stayed at home. den cancellation of pm and a slitting headache forced me into solitary confinement at home for the rest of the day. messaged shona and told her i wasnt going for strikeforce le. just redid 2 variations for the council polo t. and slept a whoppinh 4 hours. like from 2pm to 6pm la. headache was gone after that. initially was feeling really miserable and lonely.

but i listened to what yating said. i just kept praying. lol. i was like playing fm and feeling lonely. so i was like speaking in tongues while playing fm. interesting picture right. den i did QT in the evening. the presence of God was much more tangible today. its like sometimes u do QT and the presence just falls but sometimes it almost like u flail ur hands in the air trying to catch the presence. today was the former. haha. i was quite surprised i prayed for 40 minutes. so much so that my QT was brought to an abrupt halt by my parents returning home. haha. cus its like since they werent home. i took the opportunity to use the cd sampler and dvd player in the living room. but it was nice. heh. its like when u pray and u pray, u just feel so led by the spirit sometimes, its like i was praying for stuff i didnt even expect myself to pray about and its like thru the prayer, God was giving me fresh vision for next year!! and i was like telling Him i was so lonely. den He reassured me that He was enough for me. heh. so nice right!

yup. been playing fm since after dinner. quite an uneventful day. but i really wanna thank God cus He really helped me resist the temptation to call her. and i really felt His love during QT. gonna play badminton tmr with frens. tmr shall see her for the first time since the break. daddy God, You have to give me strength k!! heh. the last time i played was in primary 4 with jiaxin and boon han but they are history and so r my badminton skills. haha. lets see how it goes tmr lo!! ok. i feel tired enough to move over to my bed and roll around or maybe i ll watch soccer if its on.

good night people! good night daddy God!

|cowpoo| 1:47 AM|

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